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What week are we on? I've forgotten! Time seems to be moving at a whole new pace between working my day job at home, then being "on leave" from the day job and then heading back to the day job again next week. Honestly, I feel like one week is merging into the next! I suppose the difficulty comes in the fact that there is no change of enviroment, no change of pace irrespective of whether I'm working from home or not.

I have been doing some home work though, I'm working to try and finish my writing course, and in the midst of that an idea floating about in my head for a while for a book came to fruition and I've been maing notes on that as well.

I'd say back to reality next week, but what does that mean anymore? I could't tell you. We're in lockdown for another 3 weeks, I'll carry on working as I ususally do, queue to get into and out of the grocery store and then carry on again.

Who knows, maybe this lockdown malarkey will do us all some good, once we can get out of our own heads and find our rhythms again. Think of the good it will do the enviroment, and nature as a whole. Think of the good it will do your family when you know you can spend more time with them and think of the good it will do you to just sit back and just let it be.

Self discovery is a good thing in my mind at the moment. I've found that in the midst of all the madness, I can actually sit back and think. I've been reading more than I have in months and I can actually catch up on things I love doing like baking, cooking and crochet. I'm also discovering what I want from my life. I've been able to take stock of things and work out what is important to me. It's about enjoying the little things in life. 

I know that making the move down south permanent will be a good thing for me, I'm oddly calmer being here, I'm not as stressed as I have been and feel like I have a pressure released that I didn't even realise I had stored up.

Maybe things will all change again the coming weeks, maybe it won't, but it will be interesting to see.    

 

 

Good Morning everyone, Happy Easter to those who celebrate the festival! 

 

So, as you can see by the photograph I've posted, I have spent part of the last week working outside on the balcony, watching the world go by. I took the photo on Friday afternoon (I'm far too pale to sit in the sun) while taking the opportunity to sit outside on my newly tidy balcony and get some work done. 

 

This is the end of the third week of working from home, being on lockdown and I can say I am finding my routine when it comes to setting up to work from home, but it is dangerously easy to work far above and beyond the normal working pattern. I can hear you asking how or why. Simple answer, my "office" is also my bedroom, so I see my work station every time I go to bed. I can lay on my bed and read but spend half the time thinking I should be working, clearing just one more email from the inbox, sending one more piece of work off. 

 

Even more challenging for me in the coming week is that I am on annual leave. That means a week of not working on my day job, whilst remaining at home due to lockdown and therefore looking around the same rooms, the same walls and without a break.

 

On the outside, all seems ok with me, but mentally? I’m struggling. I’m already feeling like I’m nervous to go out even to the supermarket for groceries. I’m worried that by the time lockdown is lifted, I won’t be able to step outdoors. That is why I am glad that I was able to tidy up the balcony and make some space out there to sit and get some air. It isn’t much, but it makes all the difference to be able to go outside and just breathe.

 

I don’t have much of an update for you this week. But next week may be eventful – It is my other half’s birthday on Wednesday. I’m thinking about setting up a mini treasure hunt type game for him to find his present! I’ll let you know how it goes!

Take care, stay home, stay safe x

I've spent part of the week working outside on the balcony

Welcome back. this is part two of my new mini series, 'Me, Myself & I'.

For me, this is the end of my 2nd week of working from home. Strange to do it full time? yes, but by yesterday I feel like I have found my strid and I'm starting to get into my new routine. For those of you that follow my blog, you know I have a day job as a civil servant, with writing being my homework and long term dream.  

So another week of lockdown has passed. Do I feel affected? absolutley. Whether or not the effects are all good or not, I don't know. i know the cabin fever may well set in over the next few days. Yes, I have braved the local supermarket to pick up supplies, but that in itself is being a task in itself and doesn't hold the same joy it once would, I now feel like I have a lot of pressure on me to only buy certain items over others and like I will be judged if I buy than that. 

I've rediscovered my love of baking and I've found I'm trying new ways of baking, trying new things I haven't done before. My other half is loving that, I'm lucky that he never fails to sniff out the new cake, or biscuits that I have made and snarf them as fast as I can bring them out of the oven. 

I'm concerned about the long term affects of staying indoors for the long periods of time and what this will mean for me. I'm worried I will end up with a feeling of agorophobia, that I'm not going to want to leave the safety of the flat, but at the same time, I'm almost desperate to go outside and stand in the middle of a big wide open space. 

I'm nervous about what the virus is going to mean for the public as a whole. What is the virus going to do to society as we knew it? Will we recover from this? who knows. I'm sad for the number of people who have already lost their lives to this virus and how many more will lose their lives before we see the back of the virus, if we will ever see the back of the virus. 

To help to settle my mind, I have continued to crochet my blanket squares to carry on with my other pet project, a handmade patchwork style blanket. I'm also reading a few books to allow me to carry on adding reviews to the site. 

There isn't really anything else I can add at the moment so I'll leave it there. I'll see you all next week for part three. 

Take care, stay safe x

Welcome to my new series, Me, Myself & I. Here I'll be talking with you about the current pandemic sweeping its way across the world, and what the changes being made mean for me and my family as well as how the changes are affecting me on a personal level. 

So as it stands we're a matter of weeks into the COVID-19 (Coronavirus) pandemic that has been sweeping the world since it was announced that the virus had originated in the Wuhan province of China. 

Steadily the situation here in the UK has gotten worse. The amount of cases diagnosed has increased as has the amount of people who have sadly lost their lives to the illness. This is fast becoming a very frightening time for all of us. 

Am I scared as to what the future holds with the pandemic situation? Absolutely I am. I don't like uncertainty, I like routine, the freedom to do as I please. However, as the pandemic spreads, the ability to do whatever you want and whenever you want is fast disappearing. Already countries are on lockdown including the UK. The public are being told to stay indoors, only go out if absolutely necessary for food, exercise, medication or work (as long as you're a key worker). 

So what have the changes meant for me? Well I spent a week off work on leave self-isolating due to a general garden variety cold I caught on the first evening I was off work - having that for a few days worried me enough. Then came the real fun part. What I should probably say is that I live primarily in Nottingham. When on leave, I had travelled to South London where my long-term boyfriend lives to spend the week with him. 

During my week off I became increasingly aware of the changes being made by Government in response to the Coronavirus and the measures being taken to help to try and prevent further spread of the disease. At the same time however, I was also aware of where I was in the country, basically the wrong end of the country to my work place, and own home. Would I be able to go home? Would my train be running? 

As it was, and I have joked this to many of my friends, Monday (just gone) turned into a reenactment of a former TV program minus the outfit. I had to return to Nottingham to collect items for me to be able to work from home, as well as further supplies from my flat. In conversations with friends, and my boyfriend, we'd decided it would be better for me to work from home in London for the time being. So I dutifully travelled to London Monday morning, battling my way past the dozens of tumbleweeds and dust bunnies, not to mention the pigeons to get to my now earlier train. I collected what I needed I needed from Nottingham and made my way back to London. 

Working from home - Yay! or Working from home - ugh. Depends on how you look at things. On a positive note, getting the chance to spend time with my other half is a bonus. Yes we're having to get used to working together, even though for different companies, and work around each other too. I hae a routine for my job that I'm very used to and for me to change that is tough for me. He's more flexible in what time he starts work, but this also means he may well still be getting ready while I'm logging in!

Also on a postive note, I do feel like I'm more productive in my day - not that I'm not productive usually, but this is a different kind of feeling to a "normal" work day where you trot off the office for 8 hours. I've found myself getting things done around the flat while taking a couple of minutes away from my screen. Though at the moment, there's been times when the real treat has been taking myself to the living room for a change of scenery!

Jobs that I would normally do on the weekend have already been done. Laundry for example. I'm so up to date, to give myself something to do, I've mopped the floors! 

So what is the negative? The down side to social distancing, to self-isolation, to working from home is the lack of contact even with work colleagues. Yes, today's technology allows us to skype and gather in a virtual coffee morning, but is it really the same? No. Granted I can listen to music without the need for headphones (unless the other half grumbles about my taste in tunes), and yes I can get through any number of things from my ever growing 'to do' list, but it isn't the same as sitting at your regular desk, on your regular chair, next to your colleagues and having the near constant murmur of banter in the background that you might join in with in between pieces of work. 

Is this going to get better? probably. We're all finding our feet with the new situation. People finding that they have to queue 2 meters apart from each other to enter the supermarket (and not actually complaining) feels like the start of something from a Sci-Fi novel but maybe this is a step in the right direction. 

Now, if only I could have my groceries delivered.......

See you next time x